eeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i have so much i want to do, i want to feel alive and live like a reckless teenager, i want to someday remember my golden days and regret nothing, its literally the only thing i look forward to in life now, but i always catch myself freezing up when even just the thought of being involved with society, being seen, or just being outside in the open.........i hate it,
i want to live :(