the one i always remember

I remember that it was in the middle of nowhere like in a field of some sorts idk, and there was a cabin that was like my 'home'. My entire family went there to have dinner, my uncles, aunts, cousins, etc. But later, the aura and the surroundings got suddenly like really scary and dark? like there was something there. In the front door. I remember my older sister going up to the front door with a bat in her hand, but that didn't even work because that tall fucking monster broke down the door and threw my sister to the side, i remember it so clearly and so real. It was horrible, i could feel my terror going up and up, never going down and i fainted. Before i closed my eyes, i saw that monster staring at me with it's cold black eyes. I would never forget that. It was no monster, it already had a name in the legends called "Lycan". And no, it's not the ones that look like normal wolves, the lycans are the ones that look human and walk in two feet, and they are huge. I can still it when i close my eyes, standing tall in the front porch of our cabin with it's jaw open. When i opened my eyes again, everything was covered in blood and it was all destroyed. PAIN. The pain and desperation i felt in that moment motivate me to stand up and look for my family...or what was left of it. I went to the dinning room only to see the lycan and my sister all bloody beside him, dying. I couldn't move, i was just staring. doing. nothing. It felt like i was stuck and i wanted to scream but couldn't. Until my mom came up to the lycan to attack it but it was in vain. all of it. I saw my own mother being killed and ripped apart in front of me by that monster. It was so fucking vivid and horrible that i always felt like it was some kind of deja-vu. Gives me goosebumps all the time.
When i woke up i had tears in my eyes and just went running to hug my mom thinking she was actually dead and feeling that pain.