what the hell do i do

idk man like these days my life just sucks and i always feel like my life has no meaning because

first of all my family is shit and they dont know that im a sensitive human being so they just throw random hurtful words at me and dont know that im mentally being affected and i feel that if i confront them theyre just gonna judge me even more

second of all my social life is also shit. i always have social anxiety n thats probably the reason i dont have much friends or cant really have a proper conversation with people

and lastly i always think that i dont really have a future ahead of me like idk i just dont have a dream or ambition so what the fuck do i do. just asked here since this is the place where im the most comfortable at and where i can just express my feelings