haha can i vent rq please lol

hi my fucking life was going amazing the past week and im having a breakdown now haha. i want to fucking cry and punch shit but i cant for some reason, LMAO.

my 18 year old cousin took my fucking tablet to listen to music [why the fuck was i so stupid and fucking naive to give it to him??? what the fuck] and he went to work a while ago and didnt give it back. my brothers room is locked so i dont know if its in there and i fucking need that tablet because i spent all my money putting credits shit onto there to buy discord nitro and other shit.

i texted him and my sister and her friend [his gf] and they all basically just collectively said "wtf" except for him bc he didnt respond. im having a fucking mental breakdonw right now i really thought my life was getting better and I as a person was getting better but im still so fucking stupid and naive to trust stupid bitches with my shit. im fucking crying what do i even do at this point????

no need to respond btw i just have absolutely nobody to tell this to and im sobbing and i dont want to get him in trouble with my mom so i just have to suck it up for now haha.