rock bottom

Hi everyone who's reading this !
I'm T and I'm 17. I have no friends and very low self confidence and suffer from extreme social anxiety to the extent that I pretty much despise being in public places, but ever since covid all of this has gotten even worse . I know it sounds like I'm a spoiled lazy brat but without the driving force of school I don't even study anymore and I just lie to everyone and get by really hard in my day to day life . I have no inspiration no goal , just drifting here . I've done therapy and that but it's just like I payed them to tell me sth I already know which was fucking annoying . anyway if you've experienced sth like this please help me cause I really really hate this version of myself and really need some good-ass guidance . Thank you