I'm so inlove with my bestfriend and I miss her very much I wish I could take care of her or even to back in time to tell her that losing her parent's trust and her relationship with a boy who immediately went to have another relationship with a another girl who was one of the reason they broke up but I had to let go of this feelings cause she's straight and I'm girl she likes boys we don't talk anymore cause of the pandemic and her parents took her phone away she's so beautiful but that's it we could only just friends but I can't I don't want ruin our friendship I realized one of the boys that was in our friendgroup since elementary liked her I was the first one to know I felt jealous I thought bcs I liked him no cause he was a boy he had more chances than me to have her she has the most sweetest smile very quiet also when she cries it's hard to stop her she would just continue that makes me cry too that's the end I wish I could find someone who could also hold me like how I hold them and a family that would accept me for who I am I wish I could come out as bi without any problem in the world I wish I didn't have to hide myself going to another country to find the most beautiful girl and marry her adopt a baby come back without any hate for me I really wish I could but that's it thank you for letting me vent y'all are so amazing!!
