when ur fetish is super sus but you like it for a wholesome reason (rant)
queer here.
i'm about to get real with ya'll, and i'm going to get personal with ya'll too. i'm going to be ranting about my own personal tastes, so if you're not comfortable with that, or have any objections, please don't continue reading. ty.
tw: rape
ever since i was a kid (about 8-9 years old), i've had a hypnosis fetish. as a 5-year old my reaction to it was absolute terror. anytime a hypnosis subplot came onto tv (and let me tell you, there were LOTS. especially with electric company. holy shit that stuff scarred me as a kid), i would cover my eyes and ears and curl up into a ball. The thought of someone messing with me against my will, without me even knowing was FUCKING TERRIFYING-
It's pretty common for fears to turn into fetishes, and that's what ended up happening with me. Hypnosis scares the living shit out of me- i don't ever want it to actually happen to me- but thinking about it is quite a kick in the pants, if you catch my drift.
why am i bringing this up? well, because MOST of the people that share my particular kink are FUCKING CREEPS-
see, what I like about hypnosis is the fact that you're completely vulnerable. you can't hide anything, and all of your reactions are completely honest. if a person tells you to do something, there's no fear of them being disgusted or blaming you for anything; they asked for it, so they're responsible and will accept you completely. As a very insecure person, this is really appealing to me. And also, uh, the power dynamic is nice too.
but the thing i FUCKING HATE ARE THOSE STUPID BITCH-ASS MOTHERFUCKING CREEPS WHO LOVE THE MASTER-SLAVE COMPLEX AND THE RAPING INTO SUBMISSION SHIT. It's so FUCKING CLICHE AND HONESTLY CRINGE. I mean yeah, it can be hot sometimes because of the reasons I stated before, BUT THE FUCKING RP TALK MAN, IT KILLS IT-
Oh, and DON'T GET ME STARTED ABOUT THE RAPE FANATICS. See, "hypnosis" and "rape" are for SOME REASON inseperable in the hentai universe. This is fucking preposterous as there are MANY ways that you can implement hypnosis into consensual sex, but nOOOOO, THEY JUST HAVE TO MAKE IT FUCKING RAPE EVERYTIME TO FEED INTO POWER HIGH OF INCELS, SMH-
Like if you have this fetish, you're going to end up having to read some hypnorape shit. At least I fucking try to pretend that the scenes are consensual (and before you get onto me for reading rape shit, i am not reading it for the rape. i am reading because it's the only shit that caters to my kink)
But these fuckers READ IT for the rape. it's not that it just so happens that rape ticks off all of the criteria of things they like. No. Their desire is to fucking rape a helpless girl and brainwash them into liking it. No concern about the actual girl, it's just disgusting.
i fucking hate having to share a community with those absolute creeps. When I'm just trying to find some hypnosis good content to look at of characters that actually seem to be HAPPY AND ENJOYING STUFF- yes i know that they are probably not genuinely enjoying it, but GOD LET ME JUST BELIEVE THIS LIE- there are these ASSHOLES, just leaving creepy sexist comments talking about turning them into a slave because "that's all women should be"
l-LIKE COME ON MAN THIS IS R/HYPNOHENTAI, NOT R/WOMENBELONGINTHEKITCHEN-
it fucking sucks when you're into something for a specific reason but everyone else is into it because they just want a fantasy where they can rape people easier.
u. g. h.
TL;DR: I'm into hypnosis stuff because I have extremely low self confidence and it sort of fufills my desire to be needed and accepted, yet anytime I tell people they think I'm one of those fuckers that just want to turn people into sex slaves and rape them. and this makes me very sad and distressed.