A question from an asexual person to aromantic people?

Hello everyone. This is going to be long, so I'm sorry. I always labeled myself as asexual and biromantic, but since many years I'm wondering if I might be aromantic as well. I had relationships, but unfortunately they were toxic because my girlfriends were bitches. I however don't think it entirely influenced me negatively, even if surely in the past it was easier for me to fall in love and trust love.

I wanna clarify one detail about myself. I'm an adult, so life is difficult between bills, work, rent, life problems, etc. I really lack of time, and when I have time I prefer to dedicate it to myself or my closest friends, but at the same time I dream of finding love once and for all. Also no, I don't want marriage or children, if that's a relevant detail.

Let's explain this: I DO want a romantic relationship, I DO like to fantasize about love and partners but...I find myself completely... uninterested when it comes to actually building it up in real life. To put it simple: it seems beautiful as long as it's in my head, but as soon as I start meeting people (it's the same whether they're men or women) I end up struggling with time or interest management. It's so hard to find time for other people, hang out with them, text them, call them, especially when it's a "new relationship". I really find myself struggling a lot, and I basically "lose interest". It doesn't help the fact that I'm asexual, so I only hang out with non sexual people ^^" (it's like fishing in a puddle, we're just few unfortunately).

I also noticed that I tend to value much more friendship than relationships in real life. Like a best friend for me comes first than a girlfriend. At this point my ideal life it's probably being with a stable job and having lots of friends :/.

I already read everything I could about aromantic people, and I even recently talked to a friend of mine. He thinks he's aromantic, so he gave me his opinion about it. But I'd like to hear more stories, so please...share with me how you understood you were aromantic! It would be helpful to clear my mind about the matter.