No holes barred - female tops

(Please be nice to me) ╥﹏╥
For context- I’m a female in my 20s and i am pansexual which my s3x life reflects... but my experiences with men have become increasingly unpleasant. I do NOT like being p3n3trated and i have felt that way for the last year (i know ~self-awareness~). I don’t even really like when she’s and theys put their fingers inside of me. I’d way more rather to give than receive in that way. Has anyone else felt this way? And after reading no holes barred i felt a sexual awakening (but like non-toxic ⁄(⁄ ⁄·⁄ω⁄·⁄ ⁄)⁄