tw! death/suicide

nobody needs to read this i just need to get it out. im not even gonna hide anything dude this is fucking "juhi simp." okay. ive literally been crying nonstop since literally only 7 minutes ago. i went to see if i could contact a mutual from wattpad when we were friend in 2018 and i just checked all her accounts and i found out shes fucking de*d. i literally cannot do this right now and now knowing that i left her by herself because i lost contact with everyone makes me feel so horrible. i was never there in her last moments, and even if she was thousand miles away, i literally loved her and i cant fucking breathe and i dont know how to fucking stomach this. i dont even wanna check my whatsapp because i dont wanna see a final message on there. rest in peace mekhu i love you so much and im sorry i wasnt there for you