I love them but...

Uhmm I don't know if i have a right to be angry and upset about my mom because she is very good at taking care of us. But it really makes me sad that she tells me to keep the fact that i was sexually harassed by my sister's husband. Its been years and it's hunting me cause they live beside our house. I can't even look at him. My sister knows it too and sometimes jokes about it. Makes me feel like my feelings are nothing. Like i don't have any worth. She also talks bad about me in our neighbors whenever she have a problem with me. I don't know what image i walk out in our neighborhood. And very impatient with me. She's always angry at me. I don't want to be in our house anymore. My father is not any better he is actually worse. He is very judgemental and always talk to us like we are worthless. Everyday i am reminded that I'm a mistake because of him.