I don't know who's gonna see this.
I haven't been feeling...great. I'm not out of the closet and I can't bind, (I'm ftm) and every time I see my body, I have a breakdown and resort to self-harming.
I've developed an extreme paranoia of losing everyone I loved and I've been cutting back on eating, my anxiety and depression is going through the roof.
I had an anxiety attack a few hours ago and I almost had one again, I tried to take a bath and it was REALLY hot, I locked the door and sat there for an hour, hoping to get heat stroke and die, but instinct took over and I left the bathroom.
I've relapsed in self harm and I feel like nobody cares, I can't see a therapist and I don't know what to do with myself anymore. Have you ever felt that way?
I care about you and I support you. You’ll get through this, I know it.
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22 01,2021
It’s gonna be ok. I’m not in the same situation but I have abusive parents. And I have felt the same way. I’m not a therapist but I’ve seen one once. Try to take deep breaths and remember to challenge bad thoughts. Your doing well so keep pushing through. If you ever fell like you need someone to talk to, you can always dm me @be_an_onion o......
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22 01,2021
