I feel empty more often than I thought

It's no surprise when it comes to my boring ass life that I'd start to feel empty and the Big Sad but I started to notice it a lot nowadays. I don't know where that feeling is stemming from but if I were to guess, it's probably because I often contemplate about the meaning of my life, the horrible decisions I made (even if they're minor decisions) and its effects on the people around me. I tried to reach out but I find myself incapable of doing so and instead, care for other people's problems and set mine aside.

I also tried coping with it by doing the things I love but that just caused more feelings of emptiness. Just talking to friends makes me feel empty even though I'd never felt that way before; I love talking to friends. But now that they started to kind of ghost me, it makes me feel lonely and depressed.

I think the main reason why I feel empty so often is that I'm lonely and have a lot on my mind. Typing this makes me sad. I honestly don't know anymore. I'm just living a meaningless life.