Yaoi is world to me now

My first yaoi was anime ai no kusabi and then kirepapa , at the same time I m not sure why I started with these emotions and hardcore stuff but it was easily available on yutube 4 years ago I was on or mostly curious , I hide this fact to my sis I watch yaoi and like it actually I pretend to be homophobic cuz she also read yaoi lol I was such a bich , then I decided to come out we become close people after tht , yaoi is world to me now