it's hard to have motivation when. yknow. nothing makes me happy anymore. ive just realized right now, at the fine time of 1:14 AM, that im never happy anymore. i dont know why im alive. isnt the sole purpose of living to enjoy life? but i dont. i hate so many things about myself. im only alive because 1. im a coward 2. i'd feel bad if i were to die. my parents have already wasted so much money on me. im trying. i really am. but im such a shitty daughter. yknow, i used to think about how much fun it would be to live in a cottage all by myself. but it wouldn't be since i'm lazy and addicted to modern conveniences. i really am.. nothing special. i just want to be happy. i dont want my parents to worry about me. they're already preoccupied with raising 2 other annoying kids. im supposed to be the mature one. the one they can always depend on. one day im going to snap. i hate it here. i dont want to exist.
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Literally the same except that was me before anime. Like I feel like you just need to find something you rlly like, and contrary to most ppl it doesn’t have to be sports or anything productive rlly. You just have to find something or someone worth living for. I wish you the best babes :).