Did you ever hurt yourself intentionally? Did you enjoy it?

I'm not depressed and I don't think I'm all that emotional, but when I actively hate myself it somehow feels good and safe. When I tremble with rage, insult myself and hit myself, that's when I like myself the most. I've never cut or anything, I don't want to leave permanent scars, but I like leaving huge bruises, seeing them and pressing on them so it hurts. And if I'm calm and happy with my self for prolonged period of time it somehow feels a bit disgusting and unclean compared to when it hurts. Just a bit tho. How weird is that?

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Did you ever hurt yourself intentionally? Did you enjoy it? [Answer]

nobody 26 12,2020

tw self harm: yeah in many different ways, most of it was stuff I just didn't care enough to do cause I didn't care about myself. Like not drinking water or not caring about temperatures enough and catching colds. I still do some of them. Other than that I have cut. I now have 35 scars on my legs, nobody even noticed them when they where bright red cause the where fresh. My parents still haven't figured it out. Its really weird but I think its really satisfying to watch myself bleed. But it still kinda hurts cause they haven't noticed.

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I Love Redheads December 26, 2020 9:32 am

Is it your way to express suffering? Or would you say you're suicidal?

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