Did you ever hurt yourself intentionally? Did you enjoy it?
I'm not depressed and I don't think I'm all that emotional, but when I actively hate myself it somehow feels good and safe. When I tremble with rage, insult myself and hit myself, that's when I like myself the most. I've never cut or anything, I don't want to leave permanent scars, but I like leaving huge bruises, seeing them and pressing on them so it hurts. And if I'm calm and happy with my self for prolonged period of time it somehow feels a bit disgusting and unclean compared to when it hurts. Just a bit tho. How weird is that?
TW: Self Harm. I don't like pain at all. I absolutely despise it. Sometimes I do hurt myself when I'm having an attack or something. When I feel down in the dumps and depressed. I prick myself with a needle. And my needle is gone. I lost it. Everyone says it gets better and I really hope it does. I usually just scream internally while staring at th...... 1 reply
sammmmeee except i am sad all the time,,, but yeah i like to see the bruises and cuts and make them worse while they heal. and for me when i'm hurting myself it's like i'm punishing myself/i'm free. basically it feels good. reply
self harm tw like im not fucking kidding if you think something could possibly make you relapse dont fucking read this //
i used to take apart shit to make sum sharp so i could cut myself a couple years ago and took on really destructive tendencies. i would use scissors and dig shit into myself like some wattpad depressed girl x jungkook fic and...... reply
