Why do I watch anime and read manga

To escape my reality,it's hard here a lot of pressure and ppl blaming me from every side I found peace watching fic char and imagining myself making friends...i get yelled at a lot for watching them while am a big girl now I get laughed at when I cry watching them but it doesn't stop me and i will never stop. This is my peace this is where I believe I belong for them it maybe just cartoon but for me,and a lot of ppl..it changed us and made me feel a bit warm