hated my best friend and I'll keep shit short.

Trigger warnings about suicide....







I was feeling suicidal and told my friends about it then my best friend heard about it. She texted me" u killing urself? why " and so I explained to her what was going on and how I felt. She said" lol, that's tuff" and I swear I was gonna end shit.
Thankfully a friend (now my best friend currently) called the cops on me and got me on time.
The few next days, I was able to get my phone back and tell all of them I'm okay now and then my ex best friend came and said "are we still friends?"
In my head I said no, but I lead her on cause at that point. I wasn't a "no" person and just said yes. More days passed and I woke up to a fucking essay of her telling me why we shouldn't be friends anymore and she said "its not a big deal so"
It actually was a big deal. She left me in my worst and didn't even try to help me, listen to me or even talked to me. She only talked to me when she needed a question answered or something for someone else.
I hate her so much and I'm glad we ended it. I'm still mad how she said it wasn't a big deal cause at that time, she was one that I actually only considered my friend while the rest were acquainted.