It’s fine
I know for a fact that I’m bisexual, because of the way I grew up I have always denied it to myself. But now I know it’s something I can’t help. And I’m fine with it, I’m fine with never telling anyone. Because if I ever do, things will never be the same. And I don’t mind at all, cause everyone around me is happy & everything is so perfect right now that I won’t cause more harm.
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It's unfortunate that you were not able to be open about your sexuality. You deserve to be honest with yourself and I'm glad that you are. I found out at a fairly early age (13) that I was attracted to males then females and I opened up to my mother about it. She thought it was brave of me to be open about my sexual orientations but also made me aware that it's not usually accepted, especially with where I had to grow up. After that my mom actually sheltered me and hardly ever let me go out. She felt she needed to protect me. Either way, after I turned 16 I had a crush on my best friend (Jacobe) and confessed to him that I liked him. He just told me that it wouldn't work but he still stayed my friend but he ended up telling the whole school that I was gay. At first it was rough as I was teased and bullied. It ended up subsiding when Jacobe pretended to my be boyfriend. Nothing happened sadly but he did kind of save my ass then. I still talk to him today and I am nothing but grateful that he is still my friend and accepts me for who I am. That's the only judgement that I need to get me through high school.
i can so relate with you i too dont want people cursing me behind by back or feel disgusted by me so i also keep quite