want to run away from home

Well I want to. I don't know why but maybe because there's a lot of things I want to do and achieve but I don't have the guts, the courage, don't know where to start or how to start, is it really worth to do it, well I be able to survived til I achieved it and some lingering questions. I love staying at home but staying in OUR home makes me lazy, makes my day unproductive, doing nothing not literally nothing cause I'm working at home. I don't know if I'm making any sense but maybe I need to know first how to be independent or to live on my own in that way maybe I will learn how to descipline myself. Yea I really don't know if I'm making any sense hehehe