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(TW) So I think I’m at the lowest point of my life right now, suffering from depression, eating disorder (bulimia), relationship with my family, self harm, anxiety, school grades, stress and body dysmorphia. Today I have thought about committing suicide, and I’m still a teen. I’m sorry if someone don’t get it and tells me that I’m still young and don’t have much life experience and everything will go away soon. But honestly I can’t anymore, the thoughts of suicide won’t get out of my mind and it keeps coming back with all the negative thoughts of the things I mentioned earlier. Today I strangled myself with a charging cord and choke myself using my hands twice because it helps me to calm myself down. I’ve thought of stabbing myself in the neck, or in my stomach, cutting my hands while in the shower, taking pills to overdose, or jumping in front of car, getting out of the car while it’s in the freeway, smashing my head against the wall, and I’m not sure that if I keep thinking of these things will help at all, because even now when I’m in a car, I think to myself, just open the door and jump out, once you jump out you can be free. I’m not sure what to do because my mind will take over my body and I’ll do it sooner or later.