Falling for a person that has feelings for your close friend.

We were a group of four. We were formed due to a groupings in our laboratory class. Initially, we have known that the guy ( lets name him "X" ) has a crush to our other friend ( lets name her "Y" ). The four of us would try to get as much classes together to be able to bond. And whenever we try to tease X to Y, X would blush while Y would brush it off. I was far more close to Y since we instantly clicked.

In one of our classes, Y and W (the other one in our group) failed and caused them to retake the subject. Even so we still tried to match our classes. Leaving me with X in a more advance class. X is a reserved guy. He's quiet, understanding, and tends to keep things to himself. We were not that close since I tend to run my mouth almost about everything and laugh loudly, I was the opposite of him.

During that term, X and I grow closer. He always laugh to the jokes I would drop to him. I learned that he was fun to be with. He was far kinder than I imagined. We tend to write things in our note book and show it to one another. He showed me so many pictures of when he was younger. He also tries to drop jokes by imitating different personalities and saying the most random of things in a very awkward accent. We would laugh for hours about things we don't fully understand. We played tic-tac-toe during our lectures to have fun. I started to notice the small things he does. I fell for him.

X and Y grew apart. W and I tried to patching things up. I learned that Y was disturbed by the way that most of her classmates and us tend to match her with X. Y and I were on our way home when she told me that " X is not doing anything. How would I know if he really does like me? Its confusing me." Then I realized that X really did not confessed anything to Y but his actions would tend to show that he likes her.

Since Y made me promise her that I would not tell X about our conversation, I only joked around X about him confessing to Y. It was the hardest and most painful thing I have done.

When we, X and I, were on our way home, I asked him seriously why he would not court Y. Why won't he confess to her. Why won't he tell Y anything to validate the feelings he has for her. All he answered to me was " I don't know."

The situation between X and Y were not getting any better. When I asked W about it, she answered that it was not like in the past. So I kept on pushing X to confess to Y.

It has been months, I have drifted away from our group ( since I had a different major) and spends less time with them. I still have classes with W and Y. I distance myself from X since its too much for me to take in currently. I thought that the distance I built between me and him would make me fee at ease and would help me move on but rather it made my heart grow fonder. I long for the times that he would imitate someone that would make me laugh so loud and see him laughing with him.

I'm still moving on. And its hard.