Dumb

I did fall inlove, I think its about *th grade when I realized that I was Bi. There's a girl that really liked me alot ,at that time I was straight as hell. We became bestfriend not until I realized that I starting to like her. I started to distance myself because I don't want to be resented by my parents since they are homophobic, and my relationship with them are not that great. She then asked my am I avoiding her I tried my best to explain everything to her, good thing is she understand well. (i guess??). Month later my relationship with her gotten better to the point were we kiss each other ( on cheek!!!!). I'm very happy at that time and I totally forgot about the situation with my parents. Moving on I think its about May she told me that She has a feelings about me, I accepted her since I like her too. I was naive that time and I didn't know how to handle the relationship between us. I thought that we are dating at that time since we act like one. Somehow I noticed that She and One of my male classmate flirting with each other. I didn't pay much attention because I trusted her. At that time she was popular in our classroom and alot of guy have crush on her. The guy that I mentioned earlier I saw her and the guy holding each other hands. Later on I asked her what's the relationship between the two of them. She said "That's my boyfriend" with a very wide smile, turns out they've been dating for about 2wks. When I heard those words I almost cried and I didn't know what to do. I just simply smiled at her and Congratulate her. I have to deal with all of her lovey dovey stories and even being a 3rd wheel. I did all of that because I still like her at that time. All of the things we do was only one sided, and I thought we're on the same page. I don't have a courage to ask her Why she did all of that. And I wish that I never met her because up until now It's still hunting me even thought it's almost 3yrs whenever I think about I really pity myself.