What type of intrusive thoughts are you dealing with

I mostly think of hurting people and sometimes, I act upon it. I know it's sick but sometimes, I enjoy watching people get hurt, especially the ones I care for. Geez...Abandonment has done some shit to me.   1 reply

I always feel like im wasting away my life.   reply

Thoughts about how useless of a human being I am and how the world won't change and give a fuck if I just die. Suicide seems to be an easy escape to all my problems. Too bad I'm too cowardly to try. But who knows, maybe one day I'll muster the courage to finally do it.   1 reply

Random scary ass thoughts, like when I'm walking my mind be like "HOLY SHIT THERES SUM BEHIND YOU!" when I turn around of course there's nun behind me. And other times when I see something that can possibly hurt me my mind just says "ayo go cut yourself with that knife and see what happens!" Then it starts reading a wattpad story- idek anymore   reply

usually those "oh hey remember when you did ", suicidal thoughts, horny thoughts, paranoid sexual thoughts, normal paranoid thoughts, me invalidating my own trauma or mental health, me forgetting things randomly or asking myself dumb questions like "oh...what's my name again? oh yeah i remember yeah yeah ok", also convincing myself i'm happy even i......   reply