rant sorry
this happened a few months ago and idk why but im still mad ab it..
anyway, last year i made a really nice friend. and then that friend introduced me into their friends. i really did enjoy their company and talking to them but it turns out, i was just an annoying kid in their eyes :)
it all started when i tried talking to them but their responses would get super slow(yeah, thats normal cuz some people are busy right?) except it was summer, these people were continuously talking to other people and just ignoring me fully. it got to the point where i felt so lonely snd had no one to talk to and even if i asked them to atleast say hi to me or goodmorning back, theyd just ignore me. but i was a young, naive little child and still liked it whenever they gave me attention yk
anyway fast forward to june, i got another friend that i had so much in common with(we're still friends now) so i said "hey do you want matching pfps" and they said sure. i was so happy because with the friends above, they would never get matching pfps w me so i was extremely happy when they said yes. so me and my friend decided to get killing stalking sangwoo and bum pfps as a joke(bc said friend looks like bum). fucking 3 minutes after i changed my goddamn pfp i get a dm saying "what the fuck is wrong with you why do you have a sangwoo pfp". i thought this was a joke so i playfully responded but then i realized it wasnt and it only made them more mad. the conversation ended with the ex friend saying "get new friends" and me responding "why would you say that? you dont even know them" and the friend just laughing it off. about a week later, i still havent messaged the friend bc i thought itd be a good idea to just let him cool off and realize how dumb he sounded. yeeaah that didnt work
it went smth like "what genre do you think killing stalking is" and me going "horror/thriller". my memory is kinda hazy cuz this all happened half a year ago. anyway, we stopped talking, and one night i guess i unfollowed 2 of the friends?? idk i couldnt remember. the night after that one, i get a dm saying(it was super long so ill just shorten it) "hey, friend a and friend b told me you were a fudanshi and that you fetishized gay guys. they also told me you unfollowed them so i just wanted to tell you, you forgot one. you werent my friend any" which, that whole statement is a load of utter bullshit bc
#1 they assumed i fetishized gay ppl cuz i read yaoi? which is true but i read yuri too?? i read all types of romance they just didnt look into my background hard enough.
2: im bi? idk how an mlm is gonna fetishize themself but it makes sense cuz im hot lmao
3: OOOOH so when i gave you that roblox giftcard you begged me for, that i paid for with my own money, i wasnt your friend? mmm gotcha nice to know
N E WAY this whole situation was bizarre and very embarrassing to be in because i blocked the last girl cuz she was tryna start an argument with me and i wasnt up for it. girl is prob still gossiping with her bffs ab how i fetishize gay ppl or smth
but most of all, im more mad at the fact that the friend #1(who was the one who was ignoring me) unfriended my current best friend. its utter bullshit cuz she is the sweetest thing and they wrote a whole fucking essay on why she also fetishized gay people bc she had gay ocs or smth.. but the whole thing that triggered that was when my friend quoted her roommate saying a funny joke that had faggot in it and friend #1 getting fucking heated over it. me AND her roommate(who was gay btw) saw nothing wrong with it because she was bi with a strong lean towards girls and i have so many friends who are lesbians that say fag. when she was talking to me ab it, it broke my fucking heart cuz she was on the verge of tears over someone who didnt even deserve them..
