I just dont know what to do now :(( I wont be too graphic but I've been worried about it since its fucking grey and ever since I was 11 (5+ years ago) I've put stuff up there, (which were always markers) and I think i've now intoxicated my thing or something now.... And not only from how it looks, also now it really hurts... Something new is that when I pee its really painful, feels like a cut or something and i'm too scared to go to a gynecologist since they might think im crazy or are gonna tell on my mom....... I can't stop self pleasuring either, I know its bad but it's just distressing to me and now im wondering if im in pain or if the color of it is because of that ://
So the pain from peeing may be a urinary tract infection(uti) which can be common when you dont take care of your thing properly. I suggest drinking cranberry juice and not sticking random things up there anymore. Go get something proper to pleasure yourself with and some proper stuff to clean the things. I wouldnt put any soap or anything down the...... reply
Its probably an infection. You should visit a doctor as soon as possible. If you ignore it now it can lead to serious problems in future. Also don't worry, a lot of people masturbate daily or insert foreign objects in their genitals, its honestly not rare. Although i'd advice you to disinfect the objects first before use and wash your genitals prop...... reply