I want to kill my mother’s dad does any one relate

Seri0usly th0 d0es any0ne relate t0 this? My m0ms reason f0r being bip0lar is because of her douche bag fucking peice of shit dad that abused her mentally and physically and literally brainwashed her into thinkinG that hitting or tellint ur child to kill herself is a way to make them STRONGER.

My mom applies these actions to me ever since now and i just realized that it isnt her fault. If i were to take back the time that she was being so mentally and physically abused i will kill her dad even if that means i wont exist.

Specifically does anyone relate to this?