I think I love an enby??

Ok so this is me realising I might be in love with my enby friend. I'm a straight girl-
I mean they are the first person to make me feel comfortable and now we kinda got into an argument and that made me realise I "love" them. I honestly don't know how to distinguish this. I just feel super safe with them and got really jealous when they started getting close to another friend of ours. I don't wanna lose them. I'm sure this is just my attachment issues and emotional trauma talking but help I guess