I did this.. learn from my mistakes...

Okay, I am 18 years old. I am a girl, and i am plus sized. I have had a crush on this guy who i have been in class with since 8th grade...sad i know. But, it was our senior graduation, i wanted to give him a goodbye hug and just try to get over him and live the rest of my life you know? Well, there were so many people at our graduation that i did not get to do that. Our last interaction was when we all took a group picture before the graduation ceremony. THIS WAS FOUR MONTHS AGO KEEP IN MIND! I have always been insecure about my appearance and being rejected was the last thing I thought I could handle. I am never the one to think someone likes me. But, when my friends would tell me things that i didn't see, like "oh, he is looking at you!, he is smiling at you, he laughed at your jokes!" I got a little bit of hope from them. There were times where I believed maybe..just a little.. he light have liked me... Let me get to the point. I texted him later on that evening, telling him that i wanted to get my feelings off my chest, i like you. I also said have fun in college. HE DID NOT RESPOND TO ME GUYS. I thought he would at least shut my ass down but no response. But I surprising did not cry. Disappointing, yes. Sad..hell no. I did this knowing we were going to different colleges. But GUESS WHAT? Due to family circumstances, i didn't start this semester. I will be starting next semester. But the set date the semester was supposed to start for me, HE TEXT ME ASKING DID I GO TO SCHOOL AT SAID CAMPUS! I LITERALLY THROW MY PHONE AND COUGH. What the hell! I answered, my lovesick ass, and told him i wont start this semester. He was like, oh cool. I go to said campus!