I used to...
I was about 7 when I went to music school. You know, I was a kid so you can't really decide what you want to do. Back then I thought I want to play the piano and so I did. I've never enjoyed any minute of it. I didn't like things that I played, never practiced by myself either. I played for 4 years and the moved out from my city so I changed schools and didn't play the piano. Now that I'm almost 18 I love the sound of piano. I sometimes even imagine myself playing when listening to songs. I really want to go back to it, play stuff that I like, learn to make my own piano sheets, just enjoy what I'm playing but I'm so afraid, I played 4 years and now I wouldn't even be able to read piano sheets. I feel like I can't do it~
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I play the piano, and I've been wanting to stop forever, at first I think I used to like it and work, but now I don't, I still like to play, but working is really boring and tiring.
Since I'm at the conservatory, I can only do classical stuff, I would like to play music, like pop, rock, ... But even thought I like it I'm too lazy and don't, cause I know if I do go to the piano and do it, my mum will tell me to work my classical pieces, which I don't want to do, so I don't go to the piano at all.
I kind of feel empty about not loving playing the piano and would love to be able to love it again.
But the only thing really love doing and look forward to everyday is reading manga (Ive always been a reading person, always at the library ..