Erm...
So these past few days i have done nothing but read mangas. Well, of course i do my school work but theres one thing ive been missing out. The GC for my grade has teachers. Everyday they call out a meeting so they can explain how will we do our activities. But i dont attend those meetings. So far i have attended 2 video calls from my supervisor. I stopped attending them after the second one. Why? My first time joining a video call, i was so nervous. All we did was listen to the teacher. But that one time our supervisor called out my name, i was very embarrassed that i did not hesitated to open my mic, all i did was chat. After all that chaos, the next day they announced a another meeting. Once i joined the call, i felt so left out. I felt like no one was there to welcome me. So now i stayed silent for one whole hour. After that day, i stopped attending meetings. Whenever they talk about the lecture, the more i feel guilty. Sometimes i have the urge to leave the GC but i cant, all of those notifications has haunting me for a while now. Quarantine has really put me under pressure now huh.
If they are important you should attend but like there was a time when my teacher called my name and I got all nervous and started speaking without opening my mic. My teacher thought I ignored her and after that they would never include me in their convo. Just like you, I sit in the meeting without saying anything and its hella awkward. I stopped p......
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10 11,2020
Ikr meetings can be so nerve-wracking! and isolating sometimes. i think you should still attend though because they may discuss things that are important.
Hopefully with time you can get into the rhythm of them and get more used to them.
for one class zoom, i only started talking in like the 4th week XD
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10 11,2020
