Little rant (s e n d h e l p)

I told myself I would move out with my best freind about two years ago(when I started working part-time jobs)but the thing is I'm just now thinking about it and we don't have a very stable friendship with her and moving out to live with her seems very risky??
I can't live with my dad because of family issues and he just downright hates me and side note: he also hates my best freind.
I've only been able to accumulate a little bit over 30k over these past two and a half years and living by myself seems impossible.
I have severe attachment issues concerning my best freind but she would drop me over anything really. I'm just overwhelmed and scared that I would do something that she wouldn't like and I would be stuck with someone that hates me or even thrown out and nowhere to go.
Just needed to get that off my chest before I make a decision.