help :(
I'm desperate. Four months ago I was 70kg (162cm), and I was sick of my disgusting body. After three months of starving I reached 50kg, but my goal was (and is still 46kg). My family noticed my weight lose and forced me to eat a LOT of food, what lead me into binge eating a little less than a month ago.
Now, I am 55 and I feel miserable, because I've been stuffing myself of food and i can't stop myself until I'm uncomfortably full and vomit. After that happens, the guilt and the hatred I feel towards myself leads me to this "attacks" where I hyperventilate and cry horribly, I'm not able to move and I faint every 3-4 mins while I'm on the floor completely terrified and I feel like dying. My hair has been falling out and I even relapsed on self harming because of my current body. I really need to lose 10kg in 2 months and I don't know what to do :(
Any advice? I'm not planning on recovering, i am looking for any tips and i don't care if they're unhealthy, the idea of getting bigger scares me to death and I will do anything to be thin at this point
Even if you reach your goal weight, you wont stop. No mater if you're 46kg, when you see yourself in the mirror you wont be pleased with how you look. You've already crossed a dangerous line. At this rate you're going to keep starving yourself until you end up in the hospital. You can either continue hurting yourself (and others) or accept that you......
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01 11,2020
