help :(
I'm desperate. Four months ago I was 70kg (162cm), and I was sick of my disgusting body. After three months of starving I reached 50kg, but my goal was (and is still 46kg). My family noticed my weight lose and forced me to eat a LOT of food, what lead me into binge eating a little less than a month ago.
Now, I am 55 and I feel miserable, because I've been stuffing myself of food and i can't stop myself until I'm uncomfortably full and vomit. After that happens, the guilt and the hatred I feel towards myself leads me to this "attacks" where I hyperventilate and cry horribly, I'm not able to move and I faint every 3-4 mins while I'm on the floor completely terrified and I feel like dying. My hair has been falling out and I even relapsed on self harming because of my current body. I really need to lose 10kg in 2 months and I don't know what to do :(
Any advice? I'm not planning on recovering, i am looking for any tips and i don't care if they're unhealthy, the idea of getting bigger scares me to death and I will do anything to be thin at this point
GET MEDICAL HELP IMMEDIATELY IM SERIOUS DEALING WITH IT ALONE WILL ONLY MAKE IT WORSE
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GET MEDICAL HELP IMMEDIATELY IM SERIOUS DEALING WITH IT ALONE WILL ONLY MAKE IT WORSE
01 11,2020
My family is trying to get me to go to therapy but it scares the hell out of me, mostly because maybe they will make me see a nutritionist too
you kind find support in many different places, but the main support you can find is in yourself. I know, sounds cheesy, but know that I believe that you will get better. It can be really hard, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel you just need to keep on moving foward.