help :(
I'm desperate. Four months ago I was 70kg (162cm), and I was sick of my disgusting body. After three months of starving I reached 50kg, but my goal was (and is still 46kg). My family noticed my weight lose and forced me to eat a LOT of food, what lead me into binge eating a little less than a month ago.
Now, I am 55 and I feel miserable, because I've been stuffing myself of food and i can't stop myself until I'm uncomfortably full and vomit. After that happens, the guilt and the hatred I feel towards myself leads me to this "attacks" where I hyperventilate and cry horribly, I'm not able to move and I faint every 3-4 mins while I'm on the floor completely terrified and I feel like dying. My hair has been falling out and I even relapsed on self harming because of my current body. I really need to lose 10kg in 2 months and I don't know what to do :(
Any advice? I'm not planning on recovering, i am looking for any tips and i don't care if they're unhealthy, the idea of getting bigger scares me to death and I will do anything to be thin at this point
GET MEDICAL HELP IMMEDIATELY IM SERIOUS DEALING WITH IT ALONE WILL ONLY MAKE IT WORSE
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01 11,2020
Ahhh, make sure to put a trigger warning before for some users.
Please seek medical attention and therapy.
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01 11,2020
Even if you reach your goal weight, you wont stop. No mater if you're 46kg, when you see yourself in the mirror you wont be pleased with how you look. You've already crossed a dangerous line. At this rate you're going to keep starving yourself until you end up in the hospital. You can either continue hurting yourself (and others) or accept that you......
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01 11,2020
I battled with an eating disorder much like yours for over a decade. It was severe enough to the point where I had to be hospitalized for it multiple times. I am now fully recovered and happier than ever.
Right now you're stuck in a Chinese finger trap: the harder you try to lose weight, the more you’ll binge and gain weight. Even if you hit you......
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01 11,2020
You should definitely go to a specialist but whenever I have thoughts like these, not to the same extreme, I try to remember that my weight isnt unhealthy and as long as my health is good I'm good. if you do want to get thinner eating healthy things and drinking water and working out probably would work. Weight loss doesnt have to be unhealthy. you......
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07 07,2021
