The other day

so due to recent events, lab classes got divided to group a and group b with 2 lab days per group, and you have one partner in which you switch who is the patient and whose practicing skills so we are not mixing germs when laying in bed.

I did my skills Wednesday so Thursday was my day to watch over my partner, after the teach showed us a new skill the teaches assistant picks a pair to demonstrate a skill we just saw performed. I try to explain that it was my day as patient an would haft to strip the bed if I was the one to due the skill.

But she just talked over me and said it would be fine( sense the first day she seems to be "nice" or get really pissy with me I thought she was just feeling stressed out giving her the benefit of the doubt BUT she doesn't do that with anyone else, idk what I did to get on her bad side)

but anyway I am sensitive to peoples tones/aloud voices and my eyes started watering not to mention have social anxiety and was shaking and trying not to hyperventilate while my nose got stuffed ( while wearing a mask and a face shield, having to vocalize my actions), while the entire class was watching me fumble the skill that we learned last year,

I know how to do it but she kept talking over me to the class like I didn't and yes I did make mistakes out of feeling the pressure of the moment but with her breathing down my neck, I just ended up just nodding and agreeing with whatever the fck she said I just wanted it to be over, what was the point of trying to say anything she would just talk over me,

She realized what I meant when my partner asked if we had to strip the bedding, and then she said my bad... And then try to make it up by saying the way I fold corner at the end of the bedding is nice, I don't want her half assed compliments, after she gets annoyed with me, I just want her to leave me alone so I can learn what I need for state testing ╥﹏╥

I am dreading to go to class I'm embarrassed and so ashamed of myself for failing the skill, in front of the class, luckily my partner was kind and saw that I was under stress and gave me hints whenever I blanked out the steps, but at the same time I don't have anyone I can talk to in class because I'm not friends with anyone, and when I try to make friends they just try to talk to someone else...

I know I'm awkward and have a bad stutter but I want to be better I feel like no one is giving me a earnest chance, I can't help from feeling sad and then mad at her from singling me out all the time...