the best feeling in the world

What's the best feeling in the world? well, for me...It's shooting a gun. The feeling you get when the bullet goes off, the sensation from the recoil you get from your arm that travels throughout your entire body, that feeling of guilt you have when your victim's body falls to the floor. it's almost heavenly. The way your hand is placed on the gun, it's so, fascinating! It makes me feel something...I kinda get turned on by it.

I have always wanted to kill someone, just once. Just to know how it feels. What does it feel like when you kill someone. Does it feel good? Does it fill you with guilt? I want to know. I want to know. I want, to know...

I always daydream of a scenario where someone hurts me or my entourage and I use that as an excuse to kill someone. I just want to kill someone you know? If I had access to a firearm, I'd probably be shooting animals and call it hunting.

Am I crazy? Yes, absolutely but I don't show it. I act all nice and sweet. When someone gets on my nerves, I try my best to calm down, because I know if I had any sort of firearm or weapon, they'd be dead. Very dead.

These are only intrusive thoughts. They are always going through my head, they never shut up. Well, I do want to hurt people. I guess that's why I got into witchcraft. I use dark magic to hurt people I don't like. No one can arrest me for using witchcraft. How would they prove it? My point exactly. They can't...

One day those intrusive thoughts won't be thoughts anymore.