I fell in love with a boy:(

When I was like in 7th grade I think that was the only crush I have had in all my life. I don’t know why I liked him he was very muscular he was a fuckin boxer good body. He was my ex friend brother. He was maybe a freshman or sophomore in hs. I don’t know if I would call it love but I would get all gushy if me and him talked when we would text and he would (idk sometimes he would say by accident) send heart emoji. Most was one sided but I couldn’t just tell him I liked and either way he had gf and she was so pretty and I was still a child and not that developed. Either way I’m over it he had anger issues his family is fuckin toxic. haha also I’ve never dated anyone