Gay crisis me

I feel so attacked right now, I was just chilling about to sleep then I got distracted by Miley Cyrus and I had a gay crisis, then I watched Miley preforming for three- four hours, and then I was looking at tiktoks and it had the audacity to show me a emo male... then I was going to text my friend saying “I want a boyfriend, I want a boyfriend that is emo (I don’t mean this in a offensive way, and I’m sorry if it came off that way) and kinda has selfism issues, and might be stoned. And I will love them and help them, and cuddle with them” BUT MY OTHER FRIEND HAS THE AUDACITY TO SEND ME A TIKTOK SAYING “ways to (issjjssngsjs idk what it said, maybe like get) a boyfriend” AND IT SAID “why are you still watching? You don’t have a boyfriend? It’s ok! I love you!” AND NOW THAT FEELING FOR A CUDDLE BUDDY BOYFRIEND IS GONE AND AHHHHH, so anyways I just want to cuddle someone and I’m starting to gay panic at Miley again

I would cry if she made eye contact with me, I would let her step on me and I would be blown to a different plane if existence