any people here are suicidal? (sorry for such a sad question)

I've been suicidal for 2 years now and I'm feeling terribly alone in this experience. I know this isn't the site for this kind of stuff, but sites who relate to this topic are making me feel even worse. so this is site is kind of an outlet for me.
I've been suicidal since I've finished high school 2 years ago because working makes me feel so much anxiety and depression, that I literally cannot do it. I have panic attacks from the stress of being at work and knowing I need to go to work. so basically I'm stressed out all day, and I tried different jobs. (and I'm talking about those "part-time" jobs.) I'm living with my parents who are very emotionally abusive towards me. and I know I'll get kicked out soon. :
The reason why I haven't successfully succeed at killing myself yet was because I'm afraid of heights (which is the best way for me to actually succeed)
again, I know this isn't the website for this kind of thing, but people here are nicer and more open-minded and accepting than the people who are "supposed to help me" or "know what they are doing".
Thank you guys. I want you to know you are the best kind of people
(=・ω・=)

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cckkelly 30 06,2017

Hello. While this may not be the best place to be having the discussion: Point 1 – you are not alone. That is obvious by all the those that were brave enough to answer your question with their experiences, so take heart in that there is always someone out there that is experiencing or has experienced what you are. This might not turn out to be y...... reply

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Mina 29 06,2017

Hi. I've been diagnosed with Major Depression Disorder last year and here's what I've learned. Getting professional help helps a lot. I'm a Psychology major so getting help was a very hard thing for me to do. I thought I was weak for doing it but now I know it doesn't. It made me strong. It actually gave me perspective. Medicine helped me with the ...... 2 reply

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Yuta 29 06,2017

Hey. I know what you're going through all too well. I have struggled with suicide for about 10 years. In fact, I still have my moments. It started mainly from coming to terms with my sexuality and growing up in a family where there is still so much hate and still, no one knows. The feeling of knowing that your family loves but there is that part ...... 1 reply

29 06,2017

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Henzu 21 08,2017

Well for me it's kinda stupid: I personally don't accept suicides (bc the problems will move to the other people, only in different forms, and my family'd think it's their fault), but I still hope to die every day by some accident. Every time when I'm walking down the street, I hope for some drunk guy to run over me with his car. Or when I go to sl...... 2 reply

21 08,2017

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.kouen 21 08,2017

i dont know if its called suicidal but i have no plans to kill myself and leave troubles and history. i dont want to be tagged with 'why did she commit suicide' and people who acts like they care dig tge way of life i lived. second, my mother will be tramautized, same with my siblings. im the eldest in the family and we are barely getting by. im q...... 3 reply

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tigerstripez 29 06,2017

I was. Not anymore. Counselling at the LGBT center and martial arts helped a lot. Now i have some great friends in real life that i can count on. Huuugs. There is sunshine after the rain. The world is a beautiful place and it is better with you in it. 2 reply

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Kyoko_Nox 29 06,2017

i was when i was still going to School. pretty much the same reason as yours(emotionally abusive mother) and i was also bullied in School. what i did was simply to finish School and moving out for further education. it was also helpfull that i moved into a shared Apartment( i don´t really know how it´s called in english sry) and one of my roo...... reply

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fujoapple 09 09,2017

I attempted suicide numerous times myself, and the sole reason i kept on living was a hope inside me was that one day everything will get better. I used to drug overdose. drown myself, make cuts, went on top of high buildings, but everytime i decided to live on. Even today nothing much has changed. I'm bisexual, emotionally abused by parents who th...... 1 reply

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beeu23 22 08,2017

Hi. I have gone through depression , panic attacks and anxiety but I was never suicidal. Actually , I would like to live forever if I could.( even tho I'm sad 90% of the time ). Maybe try to do what I'm doing , more exactly live for the small things. Make a routine of waking up in the morning and drink a coffee by the window while you listen to yo...... reply

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Tanssia 28 07,2017

Hmm. That's actually a really tough question for me to answer bc I'm pretty sure I'm in denial about it even though all the signs and my brain is telling me that yes I am and probably have been since I went to high school. During high school I used to have to take this road that was on a cliff and every day when I would drive home I would imagine j...... reply

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