Chunni thoughts?
Ahhh this makes me laugh and yet also feel a little sad haha..
Recently I have been thinking of ways to.. I guess, simply put, end it all? Thing is, I hate pain, don’t like it one bit.
I imagine scenarios where I write letters to close ones about how I’m sorry I had to go and tell my family off for being such a negative influence on my life. Weird right? I don’t even know if I can put this on my platform lolll but I can’t put it anywhere else cuz I can’t get feedback or I risk getting seen by peers and losing them #－.－)
I seek momentary bliss by blasting music and closing my eyes or reading stories of fictional lives, but eventually it becomes a cycle of depressing thoughts, reading to lift my mood, falling back into a depressive state, getting angry for being such a wimp, getting in a fight with my family, ranting in my personal notes, drown in music, repeat.
Is this the so called... edgy thoughts? Maybe I should seek a therapist and stop being stupid lol, idk. I doubt I’d be able to get in contact with a therapist anyway. I’m too scared of talking people so I dunno(￣∇￣")
Should I just give this some time to grow out of and hope for the best? Maybe this was too much.. eh, I’ll delete this later if it is then (=・ω・=)
Talk to a hotline but if you’re uncomfortable talking to somebody over the phone I suggest you use a text hotline!
Also you shouldn’t invalidate your depressive thoughts by calling them edgy you should acknowledge them and seek help before all goes to shit.
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11 10,2020
Sometimes it's hard to realized that other person has their own struggles. We tend to avoid pain but it is pain that will taught us of things. This world sadly is not made of love. Living in this world has taught me that everything passes. I've learned to wait in this flaming hell untill everything passes. Living itself is the sauce of pain.
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11 10,2020
I short and it's Ok to read but I Still Can't Process Anything of it i feel like my brain is......
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11 10,2020
Yessss, no need to tell me, I know I can’t delete it lol, I forgot which platform I was on and I’ve decided oh well, no one really cares anyway so we gud ╮(￣▽￣)╭ Pfft, worst case scenario it’ll get taken down maybe? I dunno, but it’s here for people to read if they get bored and stumble upon it (●'◡'●)ﾉ
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11 10,2020
