super embarrassed (ig lol)

ahh yes, i remember the feeling quite well. i had started shipping shizuo and izaya (from durarara (before even watching the anime for some reason)) and after finding out that doujinshi existed, i decided to look it up to see if there were any for shizaya. and boy was there. at the time, i didn't know much about "yaoi" or "smut" cause i didn't really find interest in anything other than watching something and moving on, so when i found a dj and clicked on it thinking it was gonna be a cute fluffy one, i was in for quite a surprise. when it eventually came to the smut, i kept freaking out and blushing (i know, cringe) so i just put my phone down for a bit. then i decided that i really wanted to know what will happen and how all that stuff works so i picked up from where i left off after a few minutes and continued reading while freaking out at the same time. also, during the whole process, i kept putting down my phone cause i was really embarrassed. after that i read more and more and now yaoi has taken over my life lmao

(i feel like i typed out my whole life story, sorry everyone)