my first (?) break up

so i actually have an ex before this so this guy isnt rlly my first ex. but he was kinda they first guy i ever really liked and was together with. he was a really nice person, and we didnt broke up mutually nor did we broke up on bad terms. we stopped talking for a while and we fought, and i said that i wanted a break up and that’s it. we talked the whole night about stuff and stuff so we arent rlly on bad terms after that, he comforted me and it was ok. but i still see him at school a lot of times, and plus he is my brother’s friend and also kinda close to my friend group. i never stop liking him, even though i did broke up with him, and now it’s almost a year since then. i was very desperate to move on the first couple months after we broke up cause i was just so heartbroken. but after almost 7 months, i just decided that i will just keep liking him and it was a little crush i have. i know it’s weird, but i like the feeling of liking him even if he probably doesnt like me anymore. eventhough i love him a lot, i’d like to think this is just a simple crush so it’s easier to drop him. well that’s my story.