Am I in the wrong?
So I've been using Discord since I was nine, since I wanted to join a server about this gachatuber and meet other people who have the same interests as me. I met this one guy, I'll call him Alex. He was really nice. We talked, then we asked each other our ages I said "Oh, I'm 10." I really didn't want this guy to be weirded out by me being 9, then he told me he's 15. We continued talking anyways. Then he invited me to this server. It's name was something about yaoi. If I remember correctly I eventually told Alex my real age though. I didn't know what that was at the time, but I met more people. 2 more people. We were really close with each other, we treated each other like brother and sister and called each other 'The 4 musketeers.' Which was pretty stupid lol. The two other peoples names were: Ally and Aiden (fake names). Ally was like... really mean. She constantly told people "K-ll yourself", "I hope you die", etc.. I thought "Oh! This is how my friends act. It should be okay to do it too." So I began doing it as my only comeback. Then my friend Ally and Aiden started dating. This part isn't really necessary though. Then Alex, Ally, and I started not liking Aiden. Since we thought he was faking his depression for attention. So we were like spamming in the server with "ITS NOT COOL TO FAKE YOUR DEPRESSION FOR ATTENTION, AIDEN!" But he probably wasn't. Instead of us doing that, we should've asked what was wrong,,, so then Aiden left the server and we didn't really speak to him. We always tried to get in contact with him, just to insult him. But then we kinda just.. forgot about him. Then I met this one guy in the server and I was like "Oh! New friend!" But turned out he just wanted dirty photos of me.. I thought it was okay, because in the server people thought it was funny to be like "oH hEs r*PinG me, AHhHhHH!" I really wanted to be apart of that. So I did it. I sent them to him. I fcking sent them to him like an idiot. Not even knowing the consequences. I was only 9 and he knew that, he was 16. I didn't know what age gaps were. Then he
began sending these dirty photos of himself. I didn't really understand at the time. And you wanna know what? And he took advantage of my young age. Whenever he said he would leave he always put a '....' and i felt really bad, so I kept telling him "No, its okay." and this went on for months, until I came up with an excuse like "Oh, I got a girlfriend." "Ok." Is what he said. I thought I was finally done, but then I felt really bad. Then came back again "Haha, jk." then again he said "ok." He continued doing these dirty things to me, until I turned 10 realized how bad what he was doing was. I was finally able to tell him no. He then he dmed my friend Ally asking her if she wants to do things with him too. Sending her photo of his p*nis. I then dmed him rude things like “No wonder you biological parents didn’t want you” since he has step parents. And a bunch of rude things. Until he sent me screenshots that he took of my body. I begged him not to send them to Ally or Alex. But he said: “If you do those dirty things with me again” I REALLY didn't want to. So i said no. But then he sent them to Ally. She asked me “[Insert my name], are these yours..?” I lied and said “He forced me to send it to him when I was 7.” I said that he told me to send them when I was 7 because she would be weirded out because I sent them that same year. She would've been disgusted in me and would've never spoken to me again. I begged her not to tell Alex. She said she wouldn’t and that was that.
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Ally and I started dating. I trusted her so much. My friend, Alex. Wanted to do the prank on his boyfriend. So he gave me his log in info and I told him mine. I was super nosy and looked up my name in his dms with Ally. Then I saw that Ally told Alex about the dirty photos of myself. I told Ally not to tell. She told him. I really trusted her with all my heart, but she lied. I pretended it was nothing. Then I saw the dms with his boyfriend and him. His boyfriend wrote “Hey, can I kill [insert my name]?” And Alex said “Okay” then he sent his boyfriend where I live sent “[Insert where I live]” If I told Alex my address. He would tell his boyfriend so he could kill me.
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Since Ally and I were dating, I trusted her enough to introduce her to my irl friend. Despite all the things she did to me. I'll call my friend... Nathan. I made a gc with them and we began talking. He then sent a photo in the gc and asked me “Is this where you go to school, [insert my name]?” then sent a photo of where I go to school. I tried to play it off, but got so scared I left the gc. I yelled at him and he said “Well you made it too obvious by leaving. You could’ve played it off.” I got so frustrated I blocked him, but then after a few days I felt bad and unblocked him. And I apologized. Not him. Me.
Then Ally broke up with me. Then I deleted my account cause I never wanted to speak to her again, then made a new account, but then I thought that she changed and we could be friends. We started talking again, then she made a gc with me Alex, her, and other people. We got in a vc and began talking to each other. It was 12 AM. My dad walked in and told me to go to bed. I said “i gtg from call” then left. After I left she said “Hey [insert my name], remember the pics of yourself, you sent? I still have them.” I tried playing it off like “ok boomer”, since that was a meme at the time. She sent them. In the gc. With my friend Alex and her other friends. I left as fast as I could. I cried so much. Her and Alex changed it to their pfps to it. I knew they were laughing behind the screen. They’ve done this before.
I honestly thought she changed after like… 3 months, so I attempted to get back into contact with her after a couple months. We talked AGAIN. Turns out Alex and Ally got into a fight. I took Ally's side, since she had the photo's of my body and she would send them to others if I didn't agree with her. Alex and I weren’t friends anymore either, since I was taking Ally's side.
And my dad began making me feel guilty about being on the internet. I thought I had to delete discord, so I unfriended Ally, and left a gc she made with her friend and I. But turns out I didn't have to delete discord. But I just didn’t try friending her again after a few weeks. Then AGAIN I dmed her, because I knew she still has Nathan on her friends list. I thought I could speak to her, but I chickened out. I still dmed her, but this time I faked my identity. I said “oh hi, I’m [insert my name] and I’m 22 years old.” I tried to pretend like I didn’t know them, I wanted to be friends with them again. But not as me. I used the same name, but faked everything else. I was scared. I hated it. I unfriended them because they said “Why’re you dming kids younger than you” so I stopped getting contact with them. I kept giving Ally too many chances. I really didn’t want to lose somebody close to me.
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I'm really sorry for ranting here, but I just need to know if I'm right or not. I was only 9-10 throughout all of this. I'm not sure what I should do. I'm questioning to confront Ally about this. Please tell me your opinion. :(