I have this, call of thw void all the time. Ive actually been scared to drive others because i thunk one day ill just lose it one day and kill us all by running into a tree
https://www.healthline.com/health/call-of-the-voidHave you ever stood on a roof, a bridge, a ledge, or any other high place and wondered, “What if I jumped?” This urge probably came out of nowhere and disappeared as swiftly as it arrived.
Turns out, this urge has a name. The call of the void (in French, l’appel du vide) describes this impulse to hurl yourself into, well, a void. While unnerving, it’s actually a pretty common experience. It also has nothing to do with suicidal ideation.
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