Rants

me and my friend are having a hard time, i guess? i honestly just have a lot of anxiety and so i think she hates me even though i know she doesn't and it's really stressful at times. especially since we're kind of dating. i don't know it's just hard to think about that much. and i know i need to talk to her about it, but i just don't know how, so it's just pretty stressful. also, my parents can also be annoying at times. i just feel like they don't always care about me and stuff and don't listen to me and will make fun of me if i say something. i just feel bad. and then there's the constant doubt of if i'm a good person or not, what with me using people, or being mean, or complaining to people too much. it's just stupid. and even right now i feel as though i'm just saying this for attention. and then my mood swings around too much. overall, life is a pit and i would love to fly into the sun sometime soon and just have all my atoms slammed together (nuclear energy, baBYYY). but i'll keep trucking through. it's whatever. my life could be worse, probably. but let's hope not.