So um,

I'm never the one ending these friendships though,
but I guess I kind of am to blame.

I don't talk, no, I can't, because I'll go silent once faced with social situatons and I'll freak out inside my head like, "Speak, damnit" and "Oh shit, oh shit" or "What do I do, WHAT DO I DO" for example, if someone asked me a question or wanted me to say something, I would try to speak but nothing would come out. What I'm trying to say is that I'm so quiet that I'm invisible, I have no presence.

And because of that, my friendships would slowly but surely start to change from friends, to acquaintances, then working its way up to strangers.

So, in short, it's because I'm invisible.

Heck, I'm a ghost.

Most of my friendships typically last for like, half a year.