I did but not really healthy but later I did do it healthily

So all throughout my childhood I was the "fastest" child. I got bullied for it by bestfriends, family and others. In middle school was the same but a boy would pick fun at me more. I ended up wanting to change and be "skinny like the other girls and people" I worked out more and moved more. I ate better and i started to lose it bit by bit. By 8th i lost a good amount but was still considered "obese or overweight" I decided to be kore stricter and restrict food and exercise twice the amount as normal, around hours every day of the week but still ate a good amount that corresponded to what I exercised but all healthy and less bread. High school came freshman year and kids from my school noticed and were a bit shocked cause I lost a bit more and well "looked a bit good" i still thought i was fat bc I didnt like the way clothes fit and my sports uniform. I decided to restrict as much as I can and fast in order to "loose fat faster" so I cut out soda and sweet beverages most part and exercised a lot more with little food in my system. By sophomore I was my "thinnest" everyone was surprised and said I looked "good" and keep it up. Little did they know I starved and over exercised every day of the week. I then started to binge at times especially when I fasted at times but I exercised it off. Junior year I was the same but by end of 1 semester something happened personal which led me to stress eat out of sadness. I ended up exercising less and gaining a bit weight back. Second semester till almost senior I've been trying to find a way to eat the "right way" and find ways my body can handle this without always feeling tired and exhausted or just dead from starving and exercising a lot. From then on I've been successful in losing weight healthily and building good muscle. I do give myself breaks now or exercising for a short while. Which I'm glad about. Having an ed and mental illnesses messes with you, it hard not to go back to my ed, I've relapsed a bit of times but tried my hardest to do it healthy and not short cuts or shirt terms. Body dysmorphia messes with you big time if you have it especially when losing weight. Pairing it with an ed it the worst but you can get though it :) I'm trying but ik its extremely hard, you got this bud ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~