*Jumps off fridge* "iM gAy"

I want to come out, but im really scared. I come from a very christian nigerian household. even if my parents accept (which is unlikely) they are not the only one in the family.
I am already on thin ice with my family ever since I got dignosed with anxiety and depression I don't want to be even more of a dissapointment. Even with that aside what about my friends some of them are homophobic and I know that's bad but i don't want to loose them as friends. I known since like second grade I'm just really afraid. Like do I just go up to them and be like "Hey dad we got one thing in common" i wanted to wait till i get out of the house
but the gay within
It's too powerful.
Also I joke around alot so I don't even know If they will take me seriously. like i said "hey mom I like boobie's" I wouldn't take myself seriously either.
I don't what to do, and each year feels like I'm powering up and becoming more and more gay.
ALSO, WHATS UP WITH BITCHES SAYIN "oH, dOn'T FaLL iN lOvE wItH mE" STFU YO ASS UGLY GODAMM